Lately my confidence has not been what it used to be, I had a dream of what I wanted my life to be at this point in time and I had started on the journey to make it so. But life happens and because we were hopping things would go a different direction we tend to give up when it takes a turn we didn't anticipate or maybe its just me. I beat myself up so many times for not getting it right even though the people around me thought I was doing great and kept encouraging me.
When I first started posting videos on Youtube, I didn't have the right tools or equipment , I didn't know what I was doing either but the more I did it, the better I got at it and the more fun I had with it. But I felt like I wasn't doing enough and instead of pushing and learning I chose to give up, I chose to go in a different direction.
Flash forward to June when I moved into my new apartment, I was being so hard on myself, ignoring all I had managed to accomplish and belittling the dreams I had seen come true, I wanted more and I wanted it now. But all this did was put me down. So I sought comfort in DIYing. I started making furniture for my house and I noticed that each time I made something it was more stable and had a better finish than the last. I liked that feeling and I wanted to feel more of it.
My neighbor will tell you, each time she came to my house, it looked different and she kept pushing me to share my talent. But I had given up on that part of myself. The part that wanted to learn and share and grow with my audience.
About three weeks ago I decided to take a chance, I decided to try again and here I am typing this, sharing my struggle with you hopping to encourage you to start and not give up. Hoping to show you that consistency will always lead to progress and hoping that that message sticks in my head too. Hoping to show you that you are good enough despite what you feel or think and hoping that you will push all things holding you back and START but even after you start don't give up on yourself. No dream is too small and no change too big if your heart is in it.
While this is the first time you'll be watching me make a glass and wood shelf, I'd like you to know it's the third time I have attempted to make this shelf, its not perfect but I love it, I love the idea of progress that it stands for more than how appealing it looks.
so as you watch this video I really hope you get inspired to Start.
See you in my next video,
XO Ezil
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